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RESIDENCE ✦ With Nomad!V
GEMBOND ✦ Ruby

Music always gets hammered down to the Three A's.
Axe, Attitude, and Audience. Me, I had an Axe and an Attitude.
All I had to do was get the third one.

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'course it is.

[ Brushing his fingers down the side of Kerry's neck, over skin and chrome, it eventually comes to rest at his shoulder. These hands that'd done so much harm, so much damage, one perched lightly, gently, on his mainline's shoulder. ]

Why'd you think I came back? From Mikoshi, I mean. Wasn't done livin'. Couldn't leave you 'n our life behind. If I got choice 'm always comin' back, Ker.

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Good.

[Kerry says with some finality in his voice. That's what matters most to him, that V will choose him as long as he has that choice.]

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[ Inhaling deeply, V's eyes flutter closed, the enormity of all the feelings and memories back in his head where they belong coupled with how little he's eaten or slept in the past couple of weeks are getting to him. Spending an extended period of time on the edge of a precipice of terror, fear, paranoia... it leaves behind a huge energy debt. And in those two weeks he made no Manna, couldn't access the part of himself that made Synchrony possible.

He feels raw, exposed and like he's still got so much to apologize for. But his head slides across Kerry's temple eventually resting against the other man's neck. ]

'm gonna make this right. Whatever it takes.

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I know ya are.

[He rubs V's back gently, trying to soothe him.]

Right now, you're gonna get up on this bed, though. And you're gonna sleep while I hold ya and then when you wake up we'll take a shower together and eat somethin' and maybe drink some coffee.

Then you can tackle figurin' a way to do that.

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[ Today seems to be about taking the good advice from the people he knows are just trying to look out for him, who still care about him despite what he's said or done to them. ]

Yeah.

[ Surrendering himself to that better idea, he goes with it, the hesitation only because he's trying to figure out how to get the fuck up when his legs feel this weak. Cyberware's more than useful, saved his life more than once, but if he doesn't got the energy to make it work properly it's useless. ]

Okay.

[ Time to stop stalling and try standing. Gripping the covers on the bed with an outstretched hand, it's a little like watching Bambi on ice. He should probably take care of the mess his back is in from falling through the upper floor back at the warehouse, but getting on the bed is his one and only goal right now. Something he eventually manages and probably with more than a little help from Kerry. ]

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[Kerry helps where he can. He focuses on making sure that V is lying down and then stretches his own body out. Usually, he'd change into something comfortable to sleep in, but for now, that seems like too much work.

Instead, he tugs off his clothes and then climbs into bed after V in just his underwear. Then he focuses on arranging their blankets so that they can lie close to one another.

The last time he had been in this room he had left feeling like a cheap whore, but now he just feels worried and exhausted. He hadn't slept very much at all since he left this room the last time, too wrapped up in his anxiety and loneliness.

As he adjusts the bed for them to sleep next to each other, he admits to some of that.]

Missed sleepin' with ya. Do it back home just fine when you're workin' but I've gotten used to bein' with you most nights here. Tryin' to do it the last couple weeks...

Fuckin' sucked.

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[ Nothing more jarring than wanting to have missed Kerry this whole time. The truth is colder, and it's uncomfortable to reconcile how he could've carried on without Kerry and not missed him at all. All the longing and aching is there now, a deeply-rooted desire to just be close.

Lying in the bed, his gaze fixes on Kerry as he tugs sheets this way and that, adjusts the pillows so they're comfortable. In the end, he just holds out his arm, opens up the space at his side for Kerry to occupy. It's exactly where he belongs, where V needs him. It feels like an inadequate consolation even as the words roll off his tongue, but: ]

'm here now. All of me.

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[Kerry easily moves into that spot once he knows they're going to be comfortable. He feels better now that he can touch V and not feel that black hole of emptiness. He hums softly, a sound of contentment.]

Yeah, you are. [He agrees. He leans up to kiss V's cheek as an act of affection and then settles back down into simply lying next to him. It's weird how he's basically naked with V now, but his thoughts are all focused on cuddling and comforting rather than anything more sexual. He's too tired for anything more, any way.]

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[ Settling in, V's arm curls around Kerry, head rolling just enough to the side that his cheek ends up resting against the other man's head. There's still so much he's got to work out, to sift through and make right. For now, he's finally reached the point where he can't stay awake any longer.

Eyes sliding closed, he inhales deeply, slowly letting the calm he can feel from Kerry wash over him. ]

I do need ya.

[ It's a sleepy statement, but one that drifts into his head as he remembers what he said to Kerry about not needing anybody. 'course he needs Kerry. His arm tightens briefly and then relaxes again as he falls asleep. ]

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[All that Kerry really cares about right now is that V finally falls asleep. He shifts to lift his head up a bit and double check that he really is sleeping.]

Yeah, but not as much as I need you... [He mutters softly before gently lying back down to find sleep for himself.]