[ V understands the sentiment deeply. He hates the chip with every fiber of his being, even moreso now. But at the same time, without it he'd never have met Johnny. And without Johnny being the connecting piece, he'd never have met Kerry.
It's fucked up, is what it is. But beside that, he's able to appreciate Kerry's view. Mostly, that Kerry loves him so much he'd rather they hadn't met if it'd given him a shot at not having his life fucked up this much by the relic. Exhaling a sigh, he closes both hands around Kerry's still in his lap and squeezes gently. ]
There's so many ways it coulda worked out different. But it didn't. Don't got a choice except to work with what I got, chip 'n all. 'm lucky that I got all that I do. Can't imagine tryin' to live 'thout ya.
[ He knew that before, but now that he's got the memories back of all those days and nights Kerry was with him, of all the things Kerry tried to make an avenue of possibility to find some kind of cure for him. ]
When Johnny put the chip back in, I jus' switched off. Everythin' just... powered down. When I woke up again I remembered all the things after Mikoshi. Musta reorganized shit in my head, I don't know. But I remember you, 'n everythin' you did tryin' to help me. The days I felt so sick I couldn't get outta bed. Watchin' shit on the couch with you. The balcony, 'fore I left for the Crystal Palace.
When I asked ya to make me rice, last time I saw ya here... I don't know if that was some subconscious way I was tryin' to find somethin' that'd comfort me. Maybe. My brain was fucked, 'cept all I wanted was that rice. And now I realize you used to make it for me, back home.
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Date: 2021-06-22 07:53 am (UTC)It's fucked up, is what it is. But beside that, he's able to appreciate Kerry's view. Mostly, that Kerry loves him so much he'd rather they hadn't met if it'd given him a shot at not having his life fucked up this much by the relic. Exhaling a sigh, he closes both hands around Kerry's still in his lap and squeezes gently. ]
There's so many ways it coulda worked out different. But it didn't. Don't got a choice except to work with what I got, chip 'n all. 'm lucky that I got all that I do. Can't imagine tryin' to live 'thout ya.
[ He knew that before, but now that he's got the memories back of all those days and nights Kerry was with him, of all the things Kerry tried to make an avenue of possibility to find some kind of cure for him. ]
When Johnny put the chip back in, I jus' switched off. Everythin' just... powered down. When I woke up again I remembered all the things after Mikoshi. Musta reorganized shit in my head, I don't know. But I remember you, 'n everythin' you did tryin' to help me. The days I felt so sick I couldn't get outta bed. Watchin' shit on the couch with you. The balcony, 'fore I left for the Crystal Palace.
When I asked ya to make me rice, last time I saw ya here... I don't know if that was some subconscious way I was tryin' to find somethin' that'd comfort me. Maybe. My brain was fucked, 'cept all I wanted was that rice. And now I realize you used to make it for me, back home.