[ It's a fair question, V knows it is. Kerry deserves to know, it's just all still raw. Without knowing the context of why he'd felt so full of fear, today's the first day he's had a chance to start processing what's actually happened. Fingers reaching out, he snags Kerry's hand and pulls it into his lap. Easier to look at it instead of having to look up. ]
Night I went out with Vincent 'n V... for our birthday...
Prob'ly drank more than I should've. [ Playing with one of the rings on Kerry's fingers to distract himself, his jaw tightens a little at the memory. ] I left 'em at the bar 'cause I wanted to come find ya. [ He very clearly remembers thinking about eating cake off of Kerry while he was walking back. ] 'cept I got jumped 'fore I even left the Ruby Underground. Turns out some gangers found out the chip's got some value to it. A lot of value to it. And considerin' how fucked I was, guess I was the easiest target that night.
[ Frowning, he can't help but relive the moment he realized what the gangers had him pinned on the ground for. What they were planning on doing. ]
I was screamin' at 'em not to do it 'til they shut me up. All I knew was if they took it, I'd be done. Dead. Gone. Wasn't gonna see ya, not anybody, again. I was buzzed, too buzzed to take that many of 'em on. So they took it outta my head, left me in some alley. I don't know. Johnny said there's security footage of it. Don't think I wanna see it.
What showed up here few days after that was me. Just... me 'thout a neural network that worked like it did before. It broke somethin'. Ker, I barely felt anythin' when I saw ya last. It just didn't... I couldn't get to it. Didn't even know somethin' was missin'. All I could feel was this... rage 'bout somethin'. And scared. Fuckin' scared o' somethin' followin' me. I was so fuckin' convinced you were all against me. It felt so real.
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Date: 2021-06-21 03:27 pm (UTC)Night I went out with Vincent 'n V... for our birthday...
Prob'ly drank more than I should've. [ Playing with one of the rings on Kerry's fingers to distract himself, his jaw tightens a little at the memory. ] I left 'em at the bar 'cause I wanted to come find ya. [ He very clearly remembers thinking about eating cake off of Kerry while he was walking back. ] 'cept I got jumped 'fore I even left the Ruby Underground. Turns out some gangers found out the chip's got some value to it. A lot of value to it. And considerin' how fucked I was, guess I was the easiest target that night.
[ Frowning, he can't help but relive the moment he realized what the gangers had him pinned on the ground for. What they were planning on doing. ]
I was screamin' at 'em not to do it 'til they shut me up. All I knew was if they took it, I'd be done. Dead. Gone. Wasn't gonna see ya, not anybody, again. I was buzzed, too buzzed to take that many of 'em on. So they took it outta my head, left me in some alley. I don't know. Johnny said there's security footage of it. Don't think I wanna see it.
What showed up here few days after that was me. Just... me 'thout a neural network that worked like it did before. It broke somethin'. Ker, I barely felt anythin' when I saw ya last. It just didn't... I couldn't get to it. Didn't even know somethin' was missin'. All I could feel was this... rage 'bout somethin'. And scared. Fuckin' scared o' somethin' followin' me. I was so fuckin' convinced you were all against me. It felt so real.